Temporarily Upset.

This needs to be blown up on my bedroom wall.

I've said some stuff on the internet that I am not proud of and wish I could take back.

But I've seriously suffered the consequences and will NEVER be do it again.

You can count on it.

Easy to fall, easy to break.

^^^^^^^ this is so me.

I can't even begin to tell you how many times I've fallen head over heels for a guy (always way to quickly and most of the time I don't even know them that well... haha! I'm a teenager, what can I say?!) and then BOOM, broken.

"I'm a lightweight. Easy to fall, easy to break."

These lyrics are from Lightweight by Demi Lovato.

I loooooooooooove that song!
Her new CD Unbroken is the shizz.
Seriously, she came back with a big ole bang.

GO LISTEN TO IT.

NOW.

Awkwaaaaaaaaaard...

The guy you kind of like tells you he has a girlfriend now and then shows you a picture of her and you say "Oh, she's pretty"....................................................

OH YES

AMEN to that!!!!

125 125 125 125 125 125 125 125 125...

THINK 125

Well, hello there

Can I just take a moment and thank God for making this wonderful, WONDERFUL man....

THANK YOUUUUUUUUUUUU.

THANKFUL

Be thankful.

REMEMBER

I need to remember this.

FORGIVENESS

Todays post is about forgiveness.

"Forgive all who have offended you, not for them, but for yourself."

Forgiveness.

Wow.

I can't even begin to explain what an intense word that is.

It sounds so easy, but it's really not.

Whenever I think about the word 'forgiveness.'

I think about God and how many countless times he's forgiven me...

Forgiven all of us.

It says in the bible,

"But if you do not forgive others their sins, your Father will not forgive your sins." Matthew 6:15

And who doesn't want their amazing Father in heaven to forgive them? 

I mean, he was bruised, beaten and crucified for YOUR (and my) sins.

How incredible is that??

Forgiveness is so difficult.

I wish it wasn't so hard, but it is.

But it's doable. Totally doable.

And it's gonna happen with me.

I will forgive those who hurt me.

Not only because it's right, but for myself.

[FRIENDS]

(Thought I would be honest in todays post)

"A friend is the one who comes in when the whole world has gone out."

Lately I've really been thinking about the meaning of the word 'friend.' 

I'm the kind of person who will accept pretty much anyone and call them a 'friend.'

It's probably my biggest weakness. (That and I care to much)

It's so easy for me to meet someone, get along with them, hang out with them a lot, and then end up getting so hurt and heartbroken because either they changed or found other friends and forgot about me.

It's happened to me so many times that when I make another friend and they do the same thing, I get so incredibly hurt and confused...

Cause all I really want to give to that person is love and get it in return... but I always end up being the friend that gets forgotten.

I'm always the bad guy too.

They always find a way to play the victim and make me seem so horrible when I've really done nothing wrong.

I'm tired of being treated this way.

I refuse to be used and then thrown away.

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To those who hurt me,

Thank you.

Thank you for teaching me not to become so caught up in someone else.

The only person I should be caught up in is God.

Just know that I still think back to all those times when we were such good friends and I miss those times so much.

But I know that God has a plan for me, and you're obviously not part of that amazing plan.